But I wanted to share a few things real quick...
First I am going to start teaching a class here in Okinawa most likely... I will probably be teaching Apologetics.
Also, I haven't had a job for a while, but it has allowed me to much better prepare for my class.
I just wanted to share something too...
Am I a barren temple
Left for newer ways
Of speaking mysteries my veils cannot contain
Should I prepare
To winter spend again
Of silent centuries' speech for only certain men
What if I wait to find You've gone
What if Your presence was withdrawn
And I was mistaken all alone
To think I could become Your home
It'd be no surprise to finally know
I am truly alone
Come then but likely sooner I'll be alone
You moved your temple
Inside our bones and limbs
So hard to trust that You won't move again
For all eternity
You stould with Your Father in perfect unity
And when You walked the earth
You only went where He led
You only spoke what He said
So for everything You left
And all of the glory You forfeit
No matter how low You were sent
You still couldn't know what it's like to be alone
Disgraced but you were never alone
Betrayed but you were never alone
Tortured but still never alone
And nothing is worse than being alone
I have been thinking hard about us trading place
Maybe I can wear Your beauty if You put on my shame
Jesus I've been trying so hard to look like You
That I almost missed the worst of what I put You through
You didn't die for sins
You died covered in them
A prideful lying thief gasping out my final breath
For that one moment
You looked just like me
Your Father left you
And You died completely alone.
For me You were alone
You couldn't marry so He left You all alone
No better promise than sympathy
(You conquered death all alone)
Cause You know the deepest of all my needs
Never again, never alone
This song is by a band called My Epic.
But like this song really spoke to me. As a lot of times we feel that we are alone.
And like we look at our lives and we think how can God be with me, everything is going wrong.
And then we are so often to imitate Christ, but like all through Christ's life we see that He was always following the Father, and He was never alone.
Yeah we know in Hebrews it tells us that He has gone through all temptations and all trials, but we see in His life He always had the Father. And like He was never alone through it all as the Father was always with Him.
So many times we feel that we are just not worthy to have God come to us. We are not worthy to have the Father inside of us.
But then like when we look at what Christ did on the cross...
We so often think of Jesus dying for sins, but I love that line... You didn't die for sins, You died covered in them...
And like that is so true... When Christ was on the cross He died covered in our sin... He didn't die pure... He died the worst sinner... He was covered in our sin at that moment... And like God forsook Him.
Christ took all our sin upon Himself, and became sin and took the penalty... He died alone, forsaken by the Father.
He died with no one that was able to be with Him... He was alone even forsaken by the Father.... He took on death all alone.
Because really our deepest need is to not be alone, but to have a relationship with the Father. And He died alone so we wouldn't have to.
Then I also wanted to share this song by the same band... Its called Lazarus.
I can't sing that song the same way anymore
Cause I start laughing at the parts where I could only weep before
And it sounds sweeter now because the notes can't ring
until they echo through each wasted year that You restored to me
I've been thinking of how You wept for Lazarus
Tears on Your cheeks, resurrection on Your lips
Sometimes mercy can feel like abandonment
But You know all about it
I used to this I had to write these songs just so
For heavens sake and for my own I put myself through hell
But I quit striving for perfection surrendered up to it instead
And now the songs keep pouring out and I cannot contain myself
I've been thinking of how You wept for Lazarus.
Tears on Your cheeks, resurrection on Your lips
(Broken will)
Sometimes mercy feels just like abandonment
(Find your rest / Broken voice)
You let my heart die, but left Yours beating in my chest
(You sing best)
At 30,000 feet above, the earth was small enough to think of everyone I love
And then imagine them a thousand mirrors all reflect it back at once
and any light would multiply and then remind me
that Your love is more than the sum
Cause I start laughing at the parts where I could only weep before
And it sounds sweeter now because the notes can't ring
until they echo through each wasted year that You restored to me
I've been thinking of how You wept for Lazarus
Tears on Your cheeks, resurrection on Your lips
Sometimes mercy can feel like abandonment
But You know all about it
I used to this I had to write these songs just so
For heavens sake and for my own I put myself through hell
But I quit striving for perfection surrendered up to it instead
And now the songs keep pouring out and I cannot contain myself
I've been thinking of how You wept for Lazarus.
Tears on Your cheeks, resurrection on Your lips
(Broken will)
Sometimes mercy feels just like abandonment
(Find your rest / Broken voice)
You let my heart die, but left Yours beating in my chest
(You sing best)
At 30,000 feet above, the earth was small enough to think of everyone I love
And then imagine them a thousand mirrors all reflect it back at once
and any light would multiply and then remind me
that Your love is more than the sum
I can't sing that song the same way anymore
Cause I start laughing at the parts where I could only weep before
And it sounds sweeter now because the notes can't ring
until they echo through each wasted year that You restored to me
Cause I start laughing at the parts where I could only weep before
And it sounds sweeter now because the notes can't ring
until they echo through each wasted year that You restored to me
I've been thinking of how You wept for Lazarus
Tears on Your cheeks, resurrection on Your lips
Sometimes mercy can feel like abandonment
But You know all about it
Tears on Your cheeks, resurrection on Your lips
Sometimes mercy can feel like abandonment
But You know all about it
I used to this I had to write these songs just so
For heavens sake and for my own I put myself through hell
But I quit striving for perfection surrendered up to it instead
And now the songs keep pouring out and I cannot contain myself
For heavens sake and for my own I put myself through hell
But I quit striving for perfection surrendered up to it instead
And now the songs keep pouring out and I cannot contain myself
And like... So many times we think that we do all these good things and work for Heaven's sake... But for our own sake we put ourselves through so much trouble... We try to be better. We try to be good, and we hurt ourselves so much because we want to be better for what God has for us.
But we need to quit striving to be perfect and we need to surrender to our perfect God, and then all these good things will just pour out of us... We will not be able to contain them.
I've been thinking of how You wept for Lazarus.
Tears on Your cheeks, resurrection on Your lips
(Broken will)
Sometimes mercy feels just like abandonment
(Find your rest / Broken voice)
You let my heart die, but left Yours beating in my chest
(You sing best)
Tears on Your cheeks, resurrection on Your lips
(Broken will)
Sometimes mercy feels just like abandonment
(Find your rest / Broken voice)
You let my heart die, but left Yours beating in my chest
(You sing best)
At 30,000 feet above, the earth was small enough to think of everyone I love
And then imagine them a thousand mirrors all reflect it back at once
and any light would multiply and then remind me
that Your love is more than the sum
And then imagine them a thousand mirrors all reflect it back at once
and any light would multiply and then remind me
that Your love is more than the sum
And then this... This is such a beautiful picture...
If we were taken above the earth to see the whole world... And everyone who ever loved us were to hold a mirror towards us... All the light it reflect could be multiplied and whatever but like... God's love is more than the sum... He is going to help us. He is good...
Then like the last song I wanna share called Author.
I have nothing new to say. The world is so terribly big, it keeps spinning and shaking loose all my constants and making me see that the sun has been burning too long to have not shed its light in every direction.
All I know is that beautiful in me is You... beautiful in me is You.
(All... I... know...) Every good thing, every true thing, beautiful in me is You, beautiful in me is You.
(All... I... know...) Every good thing, every true thing, beautiful in me is You, beautiful in me is You.
(All... I... know...) Every good thing, every true thing, beautiful in me is You, beautiful in me is You.
I see a thousand young men, they're all marching in time with the war on their doorsteps and their lovers behind them, and all of their glory flows back to their master, but they care not for honor, for they wear His robes.
I'm tired of striving to be, who You already say that I am. I am Yours...
Take what You need to take, say what You need to say to make me who I am meant to be, You can have it all. Take what You need to take, say what You need to say to make me who I am meant to be, You can have it all.
All I know is that beautiful in me is You... beautiful in me is You.
(All... I... know...) Every good thing, every true thing, beautiful in me is You, beautiful in me is You.
(All... I... know...) Every good thing, every true thing, beautiful in me is You, beautiful in me is You.
(All... I... know...) Every good thing, every true thing, beautiful in me is You, beautiful in me is You.
I see a thousand young men, they're all marching in time with the war on their doorsteps and their lovers behind them, and all of their glory flows back to their master, but they care not for honor, for they wear His robes.
I'm tired of striving to be, who You already say that I am. I am Yours...
Take what You need to take, say what You need to say to make me who I am meant to be, You can have it all. Take what You need to take, say what You need to say to make me who I am meant to be, You can have it all.